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So.  This has been the absolute most painful year of my life.  It has also been the most rewarding, but if God is listening, that’s no excuse.  I jest, of course, because 99% of my suffering was self-induced.  In my defense, I can’t help being human.  I only think I know what’s good for me, and by the time Life has corrected me, I’ve dropped my heart down the stairs and dragged it through a mud puddle.  Then I stare at it for a second, aghast, and cast a dark, reproving look at God, who can only sigh in exasperation.  Because of course he’s been telling me the entire